Hi! Accept that he got more pride than you. It seems so fine to him that you are not in good term, so stop. Stop reading your conversation like it’s your favorite piece of poem. Stop your attempts on messaging him. You should be valued. Not all the time that it’s you who should raise the white flag though you started it all. Let him persue you. You miss him but is he missing you? Let people realize your value. You may lose them but it’s their lost too. It’s their lost that they didn’t valued those who truly love them. You’ve been into so many pains on thinking other’s sake. It’s time for you think about yourself too. It hurts I know, but you can’t always be like that. Value yourself now so others will value you too. So dry that tears and just sleep. Tomorrow is gonna be fine.